duminică, 9 iulie 2017

Adventure Time (Edited)

From the first time I put foot in Bucharest a lot of things happened to me. Starting from the beginning I had a 20 kilo troller of clothes and stuff with me and trying to carry it made me lose my right shoe in the middle of the street. Jumping in one foot with the luggage and people laughing at me was quite a sight. Afterwards the first night at a private baptist students dormitory was quite funny me with a tattoo in a place with very religious people and bells ringing each saturday and sunday morning. However me and roomie are allowed to stay here only until the end of september because we're not students anymore, she's working too. Either way we'll want to rent an apartment closer to our work so I won't have to change two buses and twi subways to get there lol. One fridge that doesn't work and messy wc it's not really a pleasant stay too. However, I had interviews each day from wednesday to friday but two of them were at global city business centre in bucharest, there are two very big building there I had an interview on each one at different days of course which was kind of funny. However I met a recruitor on thursday from a different company somewhere in the centre of bucharest and I liked it. I was quite thrilled about it that I went to rent a bike in Herastrau park afterwarda. There I lost my phone and so the drama begins. We have no router and internet the only internet I have is the one from my phone, mobile data one which consumes my battery in like two hours. :)) however you understand my panick without a phone here you are lost and you can't to anything anymore. Even through jobs you are applying on your mobile and you expect calls and stuff so very important. I lost it on thrusday I had to get back on the other side of Bucharest where I'm living right now without google maps and trying not to get on the wrong subway and bus because it's quite a very big city. I went back to the dormitory somehow after an hour or so waiting for my colleague to finish work. My colleagues and parents tried to reach me, called me etc., of course I couldn't answer I had no phone. They found me very late after searching for me in the city, kind of alerted everyone on that day. I called Orange suspended my phone number as my parents told me to try on friday next day to buy another very cheap phone with the same number just so I could be called for interviews and stuff. That evening, very late checking my mails from my roomies phone I find an email from that recruitor telling me that a woman named Coca from Turda called her that day telling her that she found my phone in Herastrau park and gave me her number to get it back. She told me that I had there the business card from where I went to interview and that's how she could get to call the firm and get to me because the phone also had no battery left and was shut  because yes I needed internet and google maps. :)) I was shocked, couldn't believe it, my number was already suspended. So I asked my roomie to go meet the lady after work because I had an interview in the afternoon at global city again, another building and firm. Called my parents told them I'll get my phone back. I bought another sim card with the same number because I thought orange suspended it like I asked them to. I never liked those people from Orange, they're always trying to steal more money from you with their very expensive  mobile subscription services so as panickrd as I was now I have a   them for 6 months, great. Afterwards I'll switch with Vodafone. If I won't be broke by the time I get my  paycheck it'll be a miracle. However, I went to the interview that day with  no kind of watch or clock on , I asked in the shops nearby what time it is and I stayed 4 hours in the sun having no time or anything like that. They were late as they apologised later for the delay. :))) the interview was great, the girls from reception loved me always smiling, went straight back home found my phone my roomie brought it back to me, her birthday was that day too it also had the  buses and subways tickets because yes I lost that too, another money thrown on another tickets. That lady gave it back intact with all my stuff there. She didn't even accept a reward or something telling her she also has nephews. I couldn't believe it, I thought it was going to be sold or smth. My number was also intact, it wasn't suspendin, great but that sim card and subscription, I'm stuck with it.  I was called the next day like today to come again there to meet the ceo and talk about that job from friday, initially I thought they'll call me on monday but they changed their mind lol. Had to take the taxi to voluntari that's where it is GCBP because saturday and no buses . A woman tried to steal my taxi, I pushed her aside I was quite angry this is very important to me not your bar you want to go, take your own taxi, the taxi driver laughed and gave me the change saying that I'm quite determined and funny lol. I've met the ceo after he finished his meeting in a pair of sandals that were ripped apart like literally, very  cheap  and I was like trying to hide them behind the table so he won't see it. He was very chill and told me straight away  I can start anytime  he's looking for more people to start a very cool  project  and that after a year or so after he gets all the people if I like it there I can be the project manager only if I  want to, I thought he was joking as I went there to be a receptionist as  this is what I worked for 8 months like a slave for almost no money :)))) of course it will be very stressful we're talking about 400+ people I'll be working with and I was looking like you're really not joking like it's this a dream, somebody please pinch me. He also said something about being that person who helps people rent or buy luxurious apartments. However there are many departments like marketing, management or dunno, many options. It was a complete silence and a very formal shake of hand at the end and a ok now you can call your parents to tell them everything is fine you have a job. Welcome to the reality kid. The firm is altex so you know their products. I have a feeling that I'll like it either  no matter what I'll do, at least for some longer time. I went to  buy myself some shoes from deichman because I really have no shoes besides sandals and sportswear. I was the only one on that gcbp bus because I found out there actually were some buses that day but one every hour or so on saturday  the driver was starting to ask me stupid question like what I was doing there all alone in that building etc. Why can't people just mind their own business? I'll never understand this. I didn't accept his one week free and I wanted to start right away from monday because I really like those offices on the 10th floor. I'll be  working with some very cool people, many starting their own lives from zero just like me. It was quite an adventure and the really hard work only now begins. I know it sounds like a comedy movie with all these obstacles in  life  but this is exactly everything that happened.I'm writing  from my phone and auto correct pisses me off. My parents told me to be careful and watch my health as I am quite careless with it and to not push myself too much.
PS: My roomie is talking in her sleep, I think she's still stressed after our first failed attempt to rent something. :))))And I missed neversea and some days at the seaside, damn it.

duminică, 2 iulie 2017

America first, Romania second! #video

You're thinking that in America you have many big problems now with Trump? Well, come to Romania, I'm sure you'll find the same problems and even more, probably even bigger and all amplified by the fact that the poor ones become poorer and the rich ones become richer no matter what you'll do, kind of like a vicious circle you can't ever escape, except if you want to migrate of course.
Watch this video for more info about our beautiful country, maybe you'll want to visit it someday. :)


Cheers!





 

miercuri, 28 iunie 2017

Click for Rihanna :))

Super mega happy! Who has an interview tomorrrow? Meee! Who has another 3 interviews next week in Bucharest? Meeee! Who's going to move to Bucharest next week? Meee! Who might get a place in a very awesome big paid internship next week in Bucharest? Meee! I said just maybe about the last one so no jumping or anything, gotta take my best white shirt for that one, I really missed that shirt. However, I'll be very happy either way no matter the result just because. :)) After weeks when I couldn't even sleep because of the stress and everything and no, I couldn't go anywhere knowing the situation I was in, I stayed at home to watch everything on the internet, paying attention to everything, like a snake(couldn't find any comparison) so I can get my chance, so I can be the first to apply to almost everything. I just had to go through all the assessments and applying each and every day to almost everything and wait because that's what you do when you really want something. I really can't have fun if I don't get what I want and if I'm not rested with my mind and with something, anything, so I can feel better with myself so I can party like it's the end of the world afterwards. I am persistent and hard working, for me fun and breaks are only when I am satisfied with myself and with what I have then at that moment. Now I am happy that I can finally get some sleep because I'll finally have some interviews and I am satisfied with everything and with myself. I am proud. Like hell, I've survived 8 months with so little social life almost to zero so of course I'll survive this, not that I haven't tried or anything, I'm quite sociable to be honest, is just that this city is quite dead for me, has been for a long time, but I had a different escape before but now having no more school it was even more dead than ever before. And I also changed so much as a person over the years that certain things and people just won't work for me anymore, no offense to anyone really, there're many still here who are very cool but none of us has business with each other anymore, that's all, not saying about my god, the boredness, the boredness was too strong. But as I wanted that much to leave with my own money, I didn't care about anything, I did it. It doesn't matter anymore, it's done, it's finished, it's history as I like it to say. Now I'm finally more chill, I've seen things, I've learned my lessons, still many more to learn.

This month was probably the hardest I've experienced in a looong time, do that, finish that, all the papers in order, go there, do that, do this, remember that, conferences with the girls about the apartment, let's not fight again, let's not bring another person only one person knows about, like really, we're enough already, still I'm glad she didn't bring a boy or a child to live with us, it could have been worse :)) with an animal I agree, better bring an animal than a person, I know we're not allowed, just joking :))) that's way too expensive, that looks horrible, that is too far away, not enough space, not enough rooms, with shower or with bathtub, ugly furniture, who cares? :)) Just give me a bed to sleep, I have other things to worry about, agencies screwing with us when visiting and many more (To be honest I felt like I was in a comedy sitcom or something, I kind of expected it, but still) we will all suffer so much, I'm already imagining it but we'll be all so busy that we'll stay there just to sleep, only then we'll see each other, oh and in weekends but I'm sure we'll be also gone in weekends too, at least I know I will :))), everybody is rushing, everybody wants to move quickly next week so they don't waste money, everybody is nervous, everybody is under pressure, everybody hopes for the best because I'm not the only one now who's looking for a job again. At least a person is thinking straight and is not rushing, doing it properly and it isn't me. She knows herself. ;) Me, now I can't be, but I'll be, soon enough. This month was hell on earth and guess what it's only the beginning, yaay! Because of a certain someone I'm using this emoticon :)) more than I should when texting. I'm so dreaming of those weekends at Therme, after everything finally settles for me. What can possibly happen more this month that haven't already happened? An earthquake or something 'cause all the other things already happened.

Well, at least nothing can stop me now. Once I get my wings there's no turning back. I'll never ever put foot in this city again, only if there's an emergency or something but I don't think I'll do it even then, yeah, I'm like that, a horrible person, don't like to look back. Doesn't mean I won't remember how I started, who was there and who wasn't, neva'.
I'll just go on and on until I'll also never see this country ever again so I'll be happy, if I'll get angry enough, probably not even the continent but ook one step at a time, one step at a time, I have a lifetime for it anyway. :)


If you want to see Rihanna without a bra watch this, like it's not the first time either way :))
 I so need a good party to dance until I lose myself a bit, just a bit.

Santana, where are you? Sounds like your guitar but I can't see you because Rihanna covers the whole screen. It should be called Rihanna&The Others. Dj Khaled looks like that kid from school who's trying way too hard to be cool like the other kids. We know it, we've all been there. :)) Jokes aside, I'm addicted to it, just for the time being.
 I like this one too
 Cheers and may God/Jesus/Buddha/Allah/Jedi watch upon us this summer!

 I'm sure this will be my last blog post and I'm sad but happy at the same time because that means that I'll have better things to do in my life than writing in a blog all day, everyday. At least I'm honest about it.  Will come back to it from time to time, maybe I'll write something, maybe I won't, really don't know, can't predict the future. :)
And one more thing: I don't accept friend requests from strangers. If we never talked or see each other or if we don't have some mutual friends there's really no need to stalk my profile. I don't need to show a big number of friends on my facebook profile. Thank you!  :)
And God how much I love this woman, Mia she even directs her own music, that's how badass is she.




duminică, 25 iunie 2017

Communication Part. 2

22 and 23 years old, the ages when you try almost everything in order to see what fits you better, the age when many means better, the age when I hope I'll never ever in my whole life be more confused as I am right now, I actually don't think it is possible to be more than this, the age when, how someone used to say, when you could completely ruin, change or succeed the rest of all your life in matter of days or months. I so hate these years from all my heart, I want them to pass quickly :)) how can someone say oh, how awesome, so young, so innocent, so great, so bla, bla bla, no, it's not great at all, these years are stupid, don't tell me with the mind you have now that you're thinking that when you were 22, 23 you liked everything and knew everything and weren't even a bit confused, don't tell me that you love those years because I'm sure you didn't have the money, comfort, experience and life you have now at 30 let's say. It's just an example. I think  these years are probably the most stupid ones from our lives because yes, we may have education but that's just it, in rest we're pretty much newbies in like everything so what are we doing besides school, jobs, partying and discovering ourselves? Not much. One may say, ok, but I had a lot of time back then. No, I don't think you had more time, you were just doing different things that's all, the time was the same. I'm talking about adults without children because otherwise there's a completely different story. That's a certain full time job for all your life if you're enrolling.

I still think these are the most stupid years of our lives even if you may say that you're not like this because you figured out everything by now, because you kind of did everything from school, travelling, jobs to marriage or even children haha, I know some fellows who think like this, I still highly doubt you if you figured out everything being under the age of 25, I really don't believe you no matter what because something is certainly missing from the whole perfect image you show of the "perfect" life of yours where you quickly did everything you were supposed to do so your family are all very proud now and at peace that everything is sorted out for you so they don't have to worry and wait no more for anything they wish for you to happen in the future because you already did them all. You should feel like life not even began not that you're already tired of it. I'm not saying you shouldn't make your parents proud, make them proud they deserve it big time but there's always different ways in which you can make someone very proud. :))

However, that's not what I wanted to point out in the blog post, it is only about my personal opinion on how I think these years from 22 to 25 are in general and why I hate them, you may love them but don't tell me that you're at your best, nobody really is, no matter what.

Probably the only good thing is that your health and energy are the best so you're at your best only physically speaking, pretty important but that's all. I'm waiting for counter-arguments and different opinions, please argue with me, haha. That's why I have to see much more things, I've seen way too little.



This version is also awesome, modern like


 Pretty awesome these movies, T1 and T2. I liked T2 more. I don't think at all that they glorify or promote drug addiction, actually I think they give you the don't do drugs feeling with that scene with the baby which was very disturbing for me, no movie made me feel more sick to my stomach than this one. :) Watch also American Gods, it's pretty awesome. I've also played Oxenfree, not now, a while ago and it's awesome. The game To The Moon will continue the story with Finding Paradise, can't wait for it because I'm such a geek and I wanted to say something else but of course I forgot, another recommendation because you know me, I like to share everything. :)

T1 (1996)
 T2 (2017)

Read also the book written by Spud even if it's all full of Scottish slang.



marți, 20 iunie 2017

Every you, every me

I've always been modest, I don't have many things or achievements that makes you say wow compared to others and of course I'm no special, nobody is and I don't know how great I am at anything but I have one thing just one thing, THAT one thing which I'm very proud of and which defines me 100% as a person and that thing is called persistence. This is the only thing I'll always be very proud of and the one thing that will probably set me apart from anyone, I am persistent in an obsessive way so even if I go through hell I'll always do it by keeping in mind my goals, wishes, objectives or simply a great vision or desire. Nothing comes easily, without great deal or effort and we, the highly persistent ones know this the best from all.

I think that: Talent, genius, and education mean very little when persistence is lacking. :) I don't say they are not important but they are nothing without true determination. I've seen many people who lack this but have many more of the above things but still that spark is missing, that burning desire, that I don't want simply to earn a living kind of spark if you know what I mean. Or maybe they are just shy which is kind of like a disease because it stops you from doing a lot of awesome things, I know it because, been there, done that, not anymore. :D Even when they've reached that success so they have all the money so no more struggling they won't be happy because they know something is missing. Highly persistent people will keep going long after the rest have dropped out. Even after they reach that success they very much fought or wished for they will still continue. It's in the DNA. It's not an easy life, not at all but it's a very adventurous and thrilling one, just like we like it to be. :)

Cheers!

And somebody reminded me of this song, chills down my spine. They even used it in an Romanian movie I won't say its name and I prefer this version more than the one from Coldplay with the lyrics.

And some songs I used to listen to with no idea of what the lyrics were actually about, never payed attention to the lyrics. Now that I understand what they're talking about, I think they're very funny the image I had before and how I think right now. :)))


Define persistence. Well, watch this movie first :)




luni, 19 iunie 2017

T-Shirts mania!

Still looking for an apartment with the girls in Bucharest for July onwards after two epic fails because seriousness my ass, that's why I never trust agencies of any kind. Hope we'll find something though, something that will really stay. :)) These days will kill me, that's why I'll go to Piatra Neamt to my cousin for a couple of days this week just to unplug from everything, shut down everything, the silence before the storm kind of thing and because I didn't go to Constanta this weekend with the future roomies because of some lame excuse. I really needed that, however, it doesn't matter anymore. The weather was awful, it rained all weekend non stop and the concert was canceled because of that so I didn't miss anything, haha.

What's with this guy and the bananas in every video? :)))

I look around and I see nothing in my neighborhood
Not satisfied don't think I'll ever wanna stay for good
Packed up my bags, told mom and dad I've gotta go, go
And once I do they'll finally see the inner me

 Everybody wanna be a star, everybody want a nice car
Everybody wanna live great, have a good damn time, never trip with the law
The popo up in PO, dirtier than VO
Bullies from the past act like I'm the fucking hero
Livin' in LA for the weather, I FaceTime mom when I miss her
I got some homies that'll never leave my hometown
When I pull up to the corner, it smell like Miley Cyrus
I told em' I don't smoke, they say "boy, you fuckin' wildin'"
Innocent and young
Reckless and we dumb
Our heart is like our earth and memories the sun.


Si m-ati innebunit cu piesa asta, e peste tot, ma bantuie, sau aia cu No Type. :)))

And now I really want a T-Shirt with Pulp Fiction, like for real. I watched this just for the sake of that awesome T-Shirt, not a fan of this guy and his music but damn that T-Shirt. I need it in my life.  :))
I'm at that strange point in my life when I only want to wear awesome T-Shirts like that one with the Bazinga!!! printed on it or with Uma Thurman from Pulp Fiction or anything related to that movie and many more if you search the big internet.

Just look how awesome they are:


Really hope that everything will be just fine in the end. It has to. -_-
PS: I edited my last post, so check it out, it has some Kate Bush in there. ;)
And my all time fav band since childhood. Now I like more only Serj Tankian and his great orchestra.





luni, 12 iunie 2017

Options (Edited)

I'll never understand those kids, youngsters even adults in general who have like a million opportunities and options to choose from in life and all the support needed to achieve anything and they're just like I don't care, I don't know or I don't want to know or I don't even want to try. Such a pity and a waste of opportunities. It's called being spoiled, I know but still such a waste. :( 

My heart skipped a beat on this song. Great orchestra!

I love this pic and they're not many pics I like with me but this one, I really like it. :)

Later Edit: These days I listened to Kate Bush like a lot which is funny because at first I didn't understand at all why the hype with her why is she called a legend and all that, I thought that Bjork was and it still is a legend but now I understand why. After a couple of listenings on repeat, I finally see it or better said feel it. Her voice as high pitched and funny as it sounds the first time you actually hear it becomes better and better and as I'm a fan of Wuthering Heights(the version with Tom Hardy and Charlotte Riley, ofc) I came to adore her little by little, love her strangeness.

Enjoy the strangeness! Be different, think different, one of my many mottos in life! :)




sâmbătă, 3 iunie 2017

Summer nights

Sleepless nights, many sleepless nights


Finished Stranger Things which was on the to watch list since last year. Love those kids. :)

I told you in the previous post that I'm scared of bad, crazy people because they're so many, I think what I'm most scared of are small minds. These are the most dangerous ones of them all because what you can't understand usually makes you feel uneasy and it is seen as bad just because it's different or just because you can't understand it, especially after a certain age when you're becoming more and more lazy and comfortable with your life so you sort of stop learning. I don't know why we do this, stop learning and trying when we're older or stop accepting new things just because, dunno why. Always be different, don't go with the flock of sheep because who cares about the crowds? They're just crowds.
Not related to anything but that guy from the Soundgarden died quite a while ago but however. It was quite a debate about how we remember good artists only after they are dead but nobody listened to them before. Well, I did, I posted about them this year before everything so it's not like nobody, nobody. :)
Cheers!


vineri, 2 iunie 2017

Resolutions (Edited)

Ready for a very long, boring post where I'll probably repeat myself? :)) You've been warned.

I'm at my final days at work and I'm feeling weird of course. I'll take my boss advice and I'll try as much as I can to find my own place in this world, if possible in another field, only if possible :( not because I was terrible in this one, haha, it's not related to that, it's just because I won't be happy around kids, I can't really go down on their level when I'm always thinking how to develop myself more and how to be better or how to grow as a person, I was surprised when she actually told me that I'm different, that she never saw a person who just can't find it in her heart to let kids in her life, that she's seeing other things in me, that she can't see not even a drop of maternal instinct in me, you know that thing all women are supposed to have no matter the age or if they're mothers or not and that it's better if I'm focusing my life on completely different things like career or something, that I'll probably be very great in other things, it can be anything else than being a parent or making a family because it's just not for me. I was kind of shocked but also thrilled at the same time, however I never saw myself as a parent of any sort, I knew it the first time I saw my nephew, I like him a lot of course but that's it, I see children, I like them but that's it, now let's go back to business :))) I always liked other things in life, it's not called selfishness it's just wanting to dedicate your life to continually develop yourself without anything else to disturb it and no, it's not because I'm too young so I'll change my mind later when I'll be older or when I'll find the right person, nope, unfortunately or maybe fortunately this is how I've always been (now I don't really know if I'll ever have a child or not, the tricky thing here is that guys usually want children so I dunno it's tricky).  She frankly told me that I'm probably the most mature, serious and strict 23 years old person she ever met in her life(I always thought that I'm the complete opposite, haha) and I don't even want to admit it acting all bubbly to try not to be a boring adult, that's my biggest fear actually :) when I know that I see things way ahead of them even happening, I always liked to talk with much older people than me because I always felt more on the same page with them and funny enough people my age always liked coming back to me and talk or even listening to my advices and think that I know some stuff naturally like I'm much older than them, like I have life experience or something when in reality that's not true at all, I didn't experience anything I just observe things around me and I naturally know what to say or to do, I don't know how exactly it happens, they just come to me very natural, I just know it, that's all, maybe I'm a good psychologist like my boss who have seen this maturity in me and of course she's not the only one who told me this so I kind of knew about it before because someone else who also know me very well told me the exact same thing that I have a certain maturity and it always feels with me like I know things I couldn't or shouldn't know because I never experienced them but I just know them, who knows how, well it's hard to explain, you just have to meet me in person so you'll see for yourself. :)))  It's very funny because the first months me and my boss we just couldn't get along at all, it was just like we were speaking different languages until we sat down and everybody was honest and said all they wanted to say. And now I'm kind of grateful but also scared because I don't know exactly what to do, I'm scared of meeting crazy, very bad people who'll put me down because they're so many (maybe that's why I wanted to be around kids more, I felt like they'll be less crazy, bad people in this field and I was right, they weren't, at least not many but of course I only saw it like a business).

Now what does Claudia wants in a job but probably won't get it very soon because life's a bitch when you're poor and need money to survive and when she wants to live on her own like really on her own for the very first time so she can get some perspective in life so less and less money for her because Romania. Claudia will be very happy if she'll work in a place that can give her the possibility to work with people and by this I'm meaning adults, open-minded and very ambitious ones who have high goals in life just like her, in a place where she can develop all the time, to grow professionally, to do all kinds of different things, to travel if possible but it's not compulsory, to kind of reach higher and higher as the years pass by, she never ever wants to feel trapped again be it in a city, in a country or by a person be it family, relative, friend, boyfriend or by a circumstance or just by life, or by a job or just because she's poor, or just because she doesn't have enough money, like it has to be nothing at all, no trap of any sort, that's when she'll be truly happy but at the same time she knows it sounds very arrogant but she doesn't want to try many unsuitable things until she gets to have the right job, that very big job or company we all hope for because if she'll do it like this it will drive her crazy forcing herself again and again, broking herself even more doing things that she knows they are just not suited for her and they just won't get her anywhere, but she has to do it just because she'll need the money to survive. And this is the vicious circle Claudia is in. And Claudia is way too young to lose her mind. Now how can you ever think of what you really love in life when you're always thinking about money, more money struggling with time and surviving at the same time or just money, money, money? And that's why Claudia hates Romania and she knows she'll have no rest until she'll leave the country for good, sooner the better. Now that she'll be closer to the airport, I think she'll get all the money she can there and book a plane ticket somewhere and never, ever come back again. :))

 But enough with the third person, I know I'll most probably be forced to continue to work in this field if I'll really won't find anything else there and that's really sad, that's quite my nightmare right there but as I really need a change of environment and people to get some perspective, I'll do it. But still what I said earlier, my wish stands, being closer to the airport, it's very tempting for me, it's my greatest wish so how could I ignore it, I'll get all the money and book a plane ticket without coming back, haha, it sounds funny because I didn't even left my home and I'm already thinking of leaving the place I'm going, that's exactly how I thought before I even got this job I was thinking about the time I'll leave it before I even got it, sorry boss, like really I'm not lying, I was that sure about it and I'm always thinking way, way ahead, :D as I'm sure I'll be broke the next months, rent and all that so harder to save money from now on when you're on your own but still I really don't know how or when but I swear I'll do it, I'll book that ticket and go to that airport and it won't be on vacation or visiting relatives it will be so that I won't come back ever again it will be for a job, well of course I'll come just to visit but not more than that I know it because the worse the job will be where I go right now and me unhappier, the sooner I'll want to leave and do crazy things and actually they're not crazy things, it's just my biggest wish of my life. And hell no, I won't go back home, I'll be rather starving on the streets and not letting anyone know about it (well that's a bit exaggerated but however you get my point) than going back. I'll always move forward, and forward and forward, bigger and bigger and bigger.

PS: The new teacher left like for good and I'm so not surprised at all, that's why I like my intuition, it's the best. :-P


The music of Selah Sue hits me hard everytime, I can literally feel her emotions and feelings when she sings, like they are mine, I feel her pain and struggles like there're my own, the power of her songs it's just mindblowing for me, she's all passion and soul in her music from the gestures to the dancing and singing, love the voice, love the way she's getting lost in her music. I saw something similar in Aurora's songs but not the same of course, 'cause they're different. I'm obsessed with her since 2014 and this don't usually happens with me, I don't have idols in music because I listen to many genres and bands and I like many musicians but with her is different because I'm coming back again and again and again more than I do with other musicians, artists and so on.


And here is the whole concert on Deezer, best songs:
Cheers! :)

And because I can't sleep:

Always fight for what you want! Hope I won't see this small city very soon




miercuri, 24 mai 2017

AnTanTe

This is the jungle I was talking about in my previous post. Romania at its finest and in private schools ohoo there's lots of them because yes, they have kids, they are also parents but not only that. :)) You'll be surprised, but not in offices or other jobs but in schools you can find most of them, because it's not only a very good business for women, not anymore, to open up an after school or any kind of private school there is out there but it's also for men too. (of course they're everywhere, I just state where the majority are and I don't have anything with them I really don't judge anyone, I usually don't care, I just state the obvious, the things I see, the pattern, what catched my eye, that's all) :) Kids will always be, just like pills if you're a pharmacist. There're things that you know they'll always work no matter the times or the place.
That's why it's better to just run, run from Romania, sooner the better because the bad influence from here will affect you less if you leave sooner, no matter the field you're working in, well in IT I heard it's the best but still. Romania itself it's a bad influence so you can imagine. I'll be honest and say that I wish I wasn't born in this country. It's great to live in Romania only if you're from a rich family so you can be rest assured you'll be rich too so if you're rich in general, otherwise it's not worth it, waste of time. You can say oh but no it won't affect me, because I will never be like that, well yes I thought so too but I realised that no it will affect anyone no matter what you do, even if you don't realise it, it will affect everyone who remains here because you can't be an outcast, nobody can, it's just part of the society, unfortunately a very, very big part of it so you can't just avoid it unless you just leave the country. It's just how it is and it's sad I know and the ones who praise it and say only good things about Romania, haha they always make me laugh because those who say these things are usually the ones that had left Romania a long time ago so it's easy for them to say that they miss it and that it is in a certain way because it's easier to just make an image for yourself in your mind of how you think it is the country when you don't actually live in that image or when you simply don't actually live there anymore since who knows when.

This song is perfect, it's a perfect glimpse of everything, it's the hard truth we don't want to accept, it's the hard truth we're all living even if you're hiding it or don't want to admit it.

 It's right in your face, staring at you, metaphorically speaking, so you can't avoid it even if you want to. That's why I think it's sad. But the truth will always be an unpleasant one.

PS: This song is actually a parody of all the Romanian Rappers, I just took it and saw it from a completely different perspective and I gave it another meaning just because they used verses from popular songs for kids and popular games we all played when we were kids and kendama at the end which is the game of now, the present, of this generation of kids. Glad I made that clear. ;)
And not related at all with the topic, now that the summer is here, I'm seeing more and more people with tattoos on them, girls, boys doesn't matter, I see them everywhere in the city and I'm quite amazed, I know there wasn't something you usually saw on everyone at least a couple of years back but now, kind of everyone who is in their 20's has one, it's quite something, to be honest.




Time for goodbyes but I'm not sad at all :) (Edited at the end)

Now looking again into perspective I think I grew up quite a bit and I'm definitely stronger, don't know how fully equiped for the jungle that Bucharest is, because Romania and a lot of "golaneala", haha, strange people, perverted, bad, manipulative, all the evilest things you can imagine and of course the ones with bigger problems than mine, etc. I don't take things and people so easily anymore, I watch out what I say because sometimes it's better to just shut up for your own good. :) But at least I'll get used to a bigger city and it's different, because that's what I'm looking for, something different, at least for now. And I'll be fine because I'm more confident in myself now, confidence is the key and definitely more independent and sociable. I have to thank again my colleagues, well at least the one that remained :)) because they were by my side from the beginning 'till the end, these girls have been through so many things in life each of them and we were such a great dynamic and diverse group, different ages, characters, views of life but we got along so well just because we were so different so each one had her charm and we completed and learned form each other quite a lot. I also tried to take some lessons and wisdom from each of them and they also, I hope, took some of my never ending energy. They tried to teach me so, so many things from life, people, men and relationships to how to truly enjoy life and my youth, how to party, what to drink, what not to drink, how to not be vulnerable and naive, or at least how not to show it, how to be a real woman and to love yourself more, they scolded me, they praised me when it was well deserved and scolded me again. We'll definetely keep in touch many years from now because I'm sure it's quite hard to find another dynamic and diverse group like this elsewhere. I really hope they solve all their problems because now they have a lot of problems with only one person left in all the centre, that's not good bussiness at all. And I hope I'll get rid of that stupid AJOFM once and for all, made me bring a bunch of different papers/documents to make me a big folder with my name, photo, card, signature stamped on it, my fingerprint was the only one that was missing there like wtf I'm no villan, happened when I got the job and to bring them a stupid paper every 3 months(those people are the most stupid people I ever met, they are those kind of people who voted with PSD) and now they want to take some of the money they gave me before Christmas back, (very few of course, because everything here is very few) just because I don't want to respect their stupid contract of 12 months, it's not even related to the contract I have signed where I actually work, that's another one, a permanent one that I can easily resign and leave whenever I want(even if the contract is full time, they made me come less hours just so they can pay me less like part-time which is stupid I know but that's how greedy they are that they don't want to pay me even a normal salary like it's stated in the contract I signed, they pay me half of that), this one with the AJOFM it's something totally different, another type of contract only this stupid country has and not only that they want me to give them another set of stupid paperwork to make another folder of who knows how many months when the law states clearly that it should be just for 12 months but now because I want to leave only after 8 months they want another folder to prolong the time and all the money they gave me they want it back, like they couldn't just spare me of those 4 months left they use big words like it's against the law of the state what you're doing so you'll be held against the law and other bullshit, fuck your law, fuck this city, fuck this country and its people, so sick and tired of the stupid bullshit you're pulling on me all the time thinking that it works just because I'm not well informed. I may not be well informed because it's my first fucking job but now I'm hella more informed, more than I actually wanted in the first place. What kind of stupid system is this? Who is this crazy, stupid and masochistic to want to be your puppet who'll work for you for so little money for a year while you're thinking of more ways to get even more money if possible, in ways like the AJOFM does, meaning in very corrupt ways, threating me with the laws of the state, that I don't respect them, are you fucking kidding me? This is so beyond me that I'm numb. I don't usually curse or wish someone bad things because it's not good, nobody wants to be cursed, I know I won't like it to be cursed, but man, I would very much like to have at least a list of people like Arya has in Game of Thrones to repeat their names always, you know what I'm talking about if you know the show.

I saw the new teacher, she left her first day at the centre crying and she had an age and some years of teaching experience buuuut those evil bastards made her cry, face all red, because of course they tested her. She was unlucky she got a class full of boys at puberty with hormones up the roof, haha. I wasn't joking when I said this isn't for everyone, especially when the company is private so kids think they're not at a public school so they think they can do anything to the teacher and parents don't care because oh, their child is the best *rolling my eyes* and you also as a teacher you're not allowed to say anything really bad to the parent because the money come from them so is your salary that month so you just have to kind of swallow it, like many things in life, be tough and badass and show those evil kids that you deserve some respect. And they'll give you the respect you deserve, they're not all evil, however, but only after a while and only if you're not soft and shy and very sweet like that new teacher. :) I remember my first days that I wanted to punch someone in the face at the end of the day, for real, which is bad, it's better to just cry like that new teacher, not like me. I actually don't remember the last time I cried, I know it was when my parrot died but I was 11 or something like that. :)) Not good like this, no, nope, violence is no good. I wish her good luck, she'll have to change in time, she'll lose all that sweetness and politeness in time, she'll start swearing and she'll also start being a badass because that's what you do, that's what that place does to you, if you want to survive or stay for a long time. :)) But she's also gonna learn some awesome things about herself, she'll be proud afterwards that she's stronger, she'll get the very thick skin as I like to say, she'll probably hate it, yep, I'm sure she'll hate it a lot or she'll just leave and simply don't bother because not everyone can be that strong, not everyone wants to face certain things, it's just not for everyone, I realised it for myself. And it's hard work, it's pure hard work, it's not like every job where you think you can just sit and answer some phones, take some coffee to your boss, smile a little bit, wear that short dress so you hope he'll give you a raise. Giiirl, that's not hard work. That's just putting your body and youth for some good use. I actually feel sorry for you if you do this and of course I hope I won't have to do something like this in my life, to put my body to good use or to any kind of use but if I'll ever have to, my boss will have the hardest time of his/her life along with me, I'll make sure we'll suffer together, not just me, I'm like that, I can get very creative.


 Be strong future new teacher, whoever you'll be, be strong. We know exactly how you feel but you have to force yourself to be strong, don't let them get to you, don't let them see anything, not even happiness, be like a rock and good luck. For you. ;)


And for me this song below because "work hard, party even harder". Alesha Dixon is awesome in this video, all fired up, this is how you dance and have fun.  I don't care about all the boys in the video, and the things they say, the sounds they make or the howling of the dogs, boys are pretty funny(I wanted to say stupid but maybe it's a little harsh and I don't want to get the wrong impression here, say no to feminists) and easy to manipulate when the hormones go up the roof and they don't think straight anymore(only then) so are women who believe all their bullshit and lies when they are like that, but women like to believe it even when they know it's wrong, because they just like it, or just because they don't have enough self respect, the problem is when you don't have any limits and accept everything, you as a woman, that's the real problem :-P but it's a very good song to dance to and the topic is complex for another time, in another post, to debate and talk about in a more friendly environment, if possible.


 Parov Stelar too has some awesome music to dance to.

Hope I'll be able to see him in concert someday, will really like to, kind of like a dream come true. I like all his music, I'm a fan, I admit.
Cheers!
 Later Edit: 
My parents just told me that they're going to Costinesti this summer because they have a friend from when they were young or something like that and that person has that kind of minivan, caravan or I don't know how it's called that's like a walking home with electricity and everything and they have an annual meet up in June where all these people with caravans will meet, kind of like how motorcyclists gather in summer and afterwards they'll can go whenever they want to the seaside because that person will stay 3 months, all the summer there, even travelling if he wants to because of course they're all retired. That's the most awesome thing ever, I'm so happy for them, they so deserve some freedom and to feel young again after a life of struggles and working.

And who doesn't want a caravan like this to escape life?





miercuri, 10 mai 2017

Broken

This will be my last post. 
My alter ego is right here below for you :)


"Break"

At all
How long will it take before I make the big mistake
And how long will it take before my eyes speak out the truth
How hard will I break when all the rules no longer stand
And thoughts are running out of air
How hard will I fall when I can't deal with this at all
It's getting darker, break my wall but no one gets my point at all
At all, at all, at all
At all, at all

And how long will it take before the mask falls off my face
And how long will it take before my eyes speak out the truth
How hard will I break when all the rules no longer stand
And thoughts are running out of air
How hard will I fall when I can't deal with this at all
It's getting darker, break my wall but no one gets my point at all
At all, at all


This song is very special for me, it always was, this song it's me, it's me the last years, I am broken for many years, no big surprise here, this year more than ever, it's no use to write now all the reasons, way too many. My many posts always reflect them and this is something I don't like about this blog. I just want this to be the last post because when I'll come back to post again, I want to say that I fixed myself up and that I'm fine so I can actually write some awesome things but if I don't come back to post something, anything it means that I'm still very broken as I am right now so no need for posting something, so it means that I'm still in the same place, still home, complaining my ass off because yes, being in the same place, at home will always be a failure coming from my part, longer it takes, more broken I become and either way I need a break from it.






luni, 1 mai 2017

1st of May

If you're a Romanian and you're born before '95, it means your childhood was exactly like in the first video below.
Now you're not allowed to have barbecues in the city which is good, kids don't play outside anymore like we did because computers and internet which is bad(I also had these of course and some years of forums and staying inside all the time playing games and all that we all did it when we discovered the big internet and what it has to offer, but much later on like in my teens and it was for a short period of time either way, it's all good, everything is fine and you should try kind of almost everything as long as it doesn't last forever, as long as it's just for a short period of time so it doesn't get addictive or obsessive of some sort) and many more, that's why it's so nostalgic, this video.
Inafara de videoclip, stiu ca sintagma "viata e pustiu" nu e corecta gramatical dar piesa si mai ales versurile sunt mai mult la caterinca asa, nu trebuie luate prea in serios acuma. De ceva timp, Delia are oricum stilul asta, sa dea peste nas la toata lumea, sa starneasca tot felul de controverse, sa fie nonconformista si sa faca exact ce nu se cere, ce e din afara normei si a societatii si ce nu se asteapta marea majoritate de la ea adica mai pe scurt face exact ce vrea muschiul ei, haha, de asta imi si place mult mai mult acum indiferent de cat de stupid suna unele piese ca are bineinteles si din astea, nu toate sunt wow. Imi place ca este exact cum vrea ea sa fie si ca promoveaza exact ce vrea muschiul ei. Cred ca fiecare ar trebui sa fie mai liber in gandire, in dorinte si in actiuni. ;)

And I usually like to steal other people's songs so hey, I plead guilty for the lack of originality but this is actually my first time seeing the video on this one, knew the song but didn't expect to see some badass, longboard girls in the video so a big, big plus for this awesome idea.

Either way, initially I wanted to post this song but the ones above are more suited for this day when if you're a Romanian you'll either go to Sunwaves or Vama Veche, depending on your taste in music or Bucharest or to a barbecue in the woods. :))
Arizona Dream movie with Johnny Depp, directed by Emir Kusturica is a must-see for everyone. I will want to see it again for the second time some day.

Cheers!

For Summer/ De Vara :)





joi, 27 aprilie 2017

Happy (Edited)

Happy 'cause I've found myself some roommates and it's awesome because they're my best friends since 5th grade, been by my side for so many years that we call ourselves family so I'm lucky we all search for a new place, an apartment, to move into starting June, in Bucharest. I'll also finish all my businesses here in June  and from July on, I'm coming to you babes, FINALLY and it will be awesome or will make it awesome or at least everything seems to come in place at the right time for me right now and I'm lucky because it happened that we have the same wishes or cause, whatever and the time is also on my side and in tune with them so it's going to be ok, it has to. Perfect timing. Time for new beginnings girls, new backgrounds, new everything for all of us three and I know we're all gonna make it happen no matter what. ;) Or it so happens that life really don't want to keep us apart no matter what, haha. Something like we can run from each other but we can't hide. :))
This is for me because I deserve it


And this is for them and for the future.
Cheers for a great summer and future.
At the end of June I'll be like Buh-bye bitches! And a big smile on my face while saying it out loud, oh yeah that's what you'll get! :) You've seen more than enough of me, way too much actually. Payed me so little that it took me 9 months of my youth and my sanity just to be able to leave the city for good and no, I didn't spend, not at all, I didn't do anything just to be able to keep them all for this, for summer.
And it's funny because another 2 of my colleagues will also leave and they've been since like forever, like 3years lool, only one will remain from 4, so hey jokes on you or karma strikes again. :D
If until I'm 30(fortunately I'm 23 and I look like I'm 17-18 so I still have some time), so if until I'm 30 I won't just leave the city but this whole country called Romania, if I won't leave for good this country until I'm 30, not just the city, bad habit to repeat myself, I will say that I have failed in my life, until then, get out of my way because nothing can stop me and everything is possible, I know I can literally do everything and can make anything happen, be it the biggest of them all, actually the bigger the better, job related I really have no limits. This is how I've always been. I'll probably do a Masters degree too while I'm there as it'll be the period of admissions too but first new city means new job. 



vineri, 21 aprilie 2017

Taboo (Edited)

Later Edit: Cititi articolul asta:http://www.piticigratis.com/2017/04/cum-sa-nu-ajungi-sclav/
Too bad it's not in English. Domnul din postarea de mai sus vorbeste de corporatii si de chestii ceva mai mari, eu o sa zic de alte chestii, mult mai mici, firme mai mici, francizate sau nu, ideea e ca sunt la scara mai mica din mica mea experienta pentru ca alceva nu am, inca :)
As adauga aici si postul meu mai vechi din 2016: http://claudiabercaruro.blogspot.ro/2016/11/about-multilevel-marketing-or-how-to.html 
precum si mai multe chestii pe care le-am descoperit recent despre temporary working, temp workers, cum sunt exploatati la greu intr-un mod foarte ilegal oamenii disperati care cauta un job in alta tara, cat de putin sunt platiti, cred ca nici macar un contract de munca nu au, in ce hal sunt tratati de la discriminare la sexual harassment, e un fel de trafic de persoane dar asa mascat sub pretextul muncii, cati muncesc fara asigurare de sanatate si multe altele si cat de ilegal este totul. Tot pyramid shaped scheme la greu. Nu stiam de ele pana nu m-au abordat Kelly Services pe LinkedIn. M-am interesat pe net despre ei si am descoperit si fenomenul asta de temp working si mai multe agentii care fac asta, e si un fel de documentar facut de VICE pe YouTube despre asta, la mine era ceva cu call center adica nu asa munca de jos ca aia din warehouses but still, aceeasi metoda folosesc si la fel de ilegal si stupid e totul, e mai naspa decat un entry-level job care macar stii ca e permanent si ca e direct in cadrul firmei, agentiile astea de la cele de job-uri pana la cele de turism, ca te storc si astea de bani la greu, sunt cele mai mincinoase chestii intalnite de mine, ar trebui scoase toate ca sa nu mai pacaleasca si sa chinuie lumea aiurea, nu e nevoie de ele, un om normal poate aplica singur direct la firma sau oriunde ar vrea pentru orice fel de job, nu are nevoie de un intermediar, nu are nevoie de cacaturile astea care te tin pe tusa degeaba si am auzit ca mai dau si economia in jos. Acuma stiu si despre prostia asta, bai da twisted rau de tot mai e lumea asta, cand zic ca nu ma mai surprinde nimic mai apare cate ceva care sa-mi dea peste nas. Si mai sunt multe prostii, cum sa faci bani din a prosti lumea la telefon, cum inca mai exista tot felul de vrajeli de firme si medicina alternativa, religii dubioase, job-uri false, chestii inventate asa de un om somer si plictisit cu prea mult timp liber la dispozitie, bai si atat dar atat de multe prostii ca nu am timp sa le mentionez pe toate dar orice om normal a dat nas in nas macar cu una din ele. Acuma si eu am prea mult timp liber de imi bat capul cu ele. Mai degraba ma apuc de sport sau activitati din astea in aer liber, tot imi place miscarea, instructor la ceva parc aventura tot e de sezon asa decat sa mai am de-a face cu oameni din astia naspa care fac chestii naspa. Asta defapt chiar e o idee foarte buna, un job la care mai mult sa te distrezi, munca distractiva si sanatoasa in acelas timp. Hmm :)) Calatoritul si asa e prea scump si nu si-l permite oricine, izolatul in munti nu prea e de mine(joking), mi s-a mai propus sa vin la Bucuresti, e altceva si nu o sa zic nu. :D

Sunt perfect de acord cu faptul ca trebuie sa fii cu totul si cu totul alta persoana acasa fata de la munca, mi se pare normal ca cele doua sa nu se amestece sub nicio forma si sa ramana foarte separate, acasa esti tu cu tine in libertatea ta, acasa nu prestezi vreun serviciu cuiva pentru care esti platit asa ca mi se pare normal sa le tii total separate una de cealalalta viata personala de job. De asta mi-am dat si eu seama la scurt timp, e chiar primul de care mi-am dat seama, e un mod foarte sanatos de a fi mai fericit si mai impacat cu tine.
Si eu care ma gandeam ca sunt eu nebuna si prea naiva din cauza ca nu stiu cum merge lumea si munca si etc. prin primele luni asa cand comentam efectiv la fiecare chestie pe care o observam si nu-mi puteam tine gura inchisa(uneori chiar trebuia dar ha, ce bine ma simteam sa nu tac cu riscul de a-mi lua "bataie", eram si cred inca, ca sunt si voi fi tot timpul angajatul ala atipic dar n-o sa ma deranjeze niciodata asta) si ohoo observam mult mai multe fata de cat trebuia. :) Dar hey, se pare ca gandesc mai lucid ca oricand(noroc ca sunt mult prea incapatanata si tin prea mult la ideile mele, ajuta si asta cateodata). Ca mai trebuie sa si tac din cand in cand, inca mai lucrez la asta. Si da poate deocamdata nu stiu foarte bine cum merge viata si minunata lume a muncii si cate tipuri de oameni exista nici nu as avea cum si de unde inca, pe asta pot sa o recunosc, dar de observat chestii tot observ si chiar mult prea multe ca mai trebuie sa invat si cum sa le iau, sa procesez toata informatia care vine din toate partile si ma acapareaza asa si sa le judec pe final ca sa iasa niste conexiuni faine pe acolo si sa ajung la o decizie misto, eeh, e timp si pentru asta, se cheama a fi organizat, ceva la care nu prea ma pricep, mai am niste ani acolo de experimentat chestii si de invatat lumea, defapt mai am o groaza de invatat si mai ales de facut dar macar sunt pe drumul cel bun, gandesc mai lucid ca niciodata, phew si nu cred ca as fi vreodata in stare sa imi pierd multi ani din viata lucrand doar un lucru, doar acel ceva si atat(cel putin asta e viziunea mea de moment), nu stiu, ma plictisesc mult prea repede, trec tot timpul la altceva, nehotararea asta are si ea avantajele si dezavantajele ei intr-un fel, dar chiar cred ca o sa imi descopar incet, incet si vocatia si rolul meu pe pamant(suna fancy) daca nu descopar nimic, eeh, de invatat tot o sa invat cate ceva si tot o sa am de unde alege ca o sa stiu ca am incercat aia si aia si aia si nu mi-a placut, o sa le iau prin eliminare ca tot imi plac mult prea multe chestii, e bine macar ca deocamdata stiu ce mi-as dori sa fac pentru la anul de exemplu, ca nu e chiar pentru toata viata, doar pentru o perioada scurta de timp, asta e partea a doua dar oh imi place prea mult si ar fi pacat sa nu incerc, de ceva noroc pentru o sansa mai am nevoie apoi sigur o sa ma descurc pe mai departe.

Foarte bun material e articolul de mai sus si nu mi se pare deloc exagerat pentru ca eu am avut norocul asta, sa vad si alte tari si alte lumi si altfel de lifestyle, mentalitati, oameni, tot ce vrei, the whole package, prin urmare sa stiu ca exista acel altceva, defapt exista mai multe altceva-uri chiar foarte multe pe care noi nu cred ca vom avea ocazia sa le traim sau macar sa ni le imaginam vreodata ca ele exista din cauza ca Romania si din cauza ca viata unui om in general e destul de limitata, nu e timp chiar pentru tot ce exista out there, defapt sunt sigura ca nu e timp pentru tot, face parte din a fi om si nu computer, robot, ce-o mai exista, whatever.

Si cred ca de multe ori e mai bine sa fii luat drept nebun, eu asta am sa ii zic tineretului(ala care e mai tanar decat mine ca si eu sunt tineret) fiti exact ce vreti, fiti nebuni daca asta vreti, nebunia e foarte frumoasa daca e si inteleasa corect, cum trebuie(vezi Legion) si in nebunia voastra acolo ganditi numai si numai pentru voi dar faceti-o asumat, asumati-va ideile si gandirea si mergeti pana la capat cu ea si cu ele, ideile si sa nu va fie niciodata teama sa fiti luati drept nebuni, pentru ca sunt sigura ca tot timpul se va gasi pe putin o persoana care sa va impartaseasca ideile si viziunea pentru ca e imposibil sa nu existe, nimeni nu e atat de unic pe cat ar crede, credem ca suntem unici si speciali in adolescenta, mai tarziu aflam ca defapt toti suntem o apa si-un pamant, nu e nimeni mai special, toti ne nastem, cu totii facem anumite chestii la fel, gen mancam, bem si alte nevoi din astea, chiar si vietile ne sunt cam trase la indigo la majoritatea, prima iubire, dezamagire apoi alta iubire, casatorie, copii, nepoti, e cam acelas pattern la care majoritatea ajungem chiar daca poate il negam in prima instanta, la toti ne cedeaza organismul si murim in final(ar fi mare pacat sa ne cedeze mult mai devreme decat ar trebui din cauza ca ne stresam si ne fortam aiurea asa ca take care) si stiu ca era si o poza de pe 9gag care sustinea ca suntem cu totii nesemnificativi universului. Zicea ceva cu Calm down, chill, we are all worthless in the universe. Nu e deloc gandire nihilista asta, e o gandire lucida si foarte adevarata si chiar foarte sanatoasa. Mai multi ar trebui sa o ia ca atare si sa nu se mai atace asa pe degeaba din orice. Asa ca chill, enjoy your short life on planet Earth and do only and only what makes you happy! because either way, you'll die. And Ding, here's the smile on my 'lil face! Mi se confirma din ce in ce mai tare ca oamenii care gandesc mult prea mult sau stiu prea multe sunt si din ce in ce mai nefericiti, mmda grea "veata de intelectual". :)))
Reminded me of this song:

 Now back to my original post :)
I soo, soo don't like mediocre people with mediocre minds and their mediocre worlds. They make me feel sick, like I can literally feel it in my stomach, the feeling of sickness and disgust but hey you gotta play by the rules at least for your own benefit, there's no other way so you gotta pretend most of the time. And yes, I'm starting to be very good at what I'm doing that being a first class arrogant. This is my shield and I'm proud of it, if you really deserve to see how I really am, that's only my call.

And now the hats are in fashion again, thanks to this amazing show. :)
Can't wait for season 2, surprised me in a very good way, so insightful this show is(I inverted the topic here so it's not a mistake, you're welcome) and yes Tom Hardy is sexy as hell(half of the ladies are pregnant just by watching him walk in this show :)) but of course that's not the only reason we are watching this show, aren't we ladies? :D
Of course we know there's much more to it than just Tom Hardy. Like awesome quotes: "You believe in justice? And yet you're a rationalist. What kind of rational man believes in justice?" Uuuuu
However, awesome show. Cheers and have fun watching it!





marți, 18 aprilie 2017

Firefly (Edited)

I posted on my Instagram the classiest, most elegant dress I ever worn and my favourite of all time. I have it for 2 years and I love it so much that I hope I'll fit into it my whole life and it's funny because I found it very randomly displayed in a local boutique shop and it was very cheap but everything from the material to the black lace from the front is of good material and it looks very expensive and from who knows what very expensive couture shop when it's just from a tiny shop, found it by chance in a winter day, that's why it's funny. And it fits me perfectly like it was made for me, not to short but also not too long, no dress fits me better than this one and it's the classiest and most elegant thing I ever wore because it has a little bit of train and lace of course, I don't know it's just pure perfection, simply can't pass unnoticed wearing it, quite impossible with that black lace in the front. 
I probably should have someone take a normal photo of me wearing it and not just a very unprofessional selfie with my potato phone who does potato photos, that's how I call my phone so get used to it. Here's the pic or more pics in one, whatever. I tried to capture some of its beauty but not everything.



I don't know why I needed to blog about this, is just a dress and I don't usually get very attached to clothes or shoes or make-up, I get more attached to things in general, books or random things, music but not clothes but this one is a special one, like when you wear your first pair of high heels to the very first lace dress or dress with real lace, it's just some womanly things, nothing more.

It goes very well with this song and movie. Who doesn't like Pulp Fiction and the classics in general?

And this dance scene. :) Quite iconic.

I'm a huge fan of Tarantino but more of Uma Thurman and Nancy Sinatra and her boots which are made for walkin'. Women were beautiful then, more natural but I think they are also beautiful now. If you have good taste, you can't be anything else except beautiful. ;) A wink for all the ladies to feel special, haha.

And the title for my blog post is from this song.
What I'll be without art in my life, art expressed in any form possible, in any form that ever exists, I don't know, probably dead, dead metaphorically speaking, dead inside. :)
Cheers!

Later Edit: Pink Martini is back in Romania and so is Depeche Mode, hmmm.
For me Pink Martini sounds a 'lil bit like Goran Bregovic but it's just my personal opinion:

And this is what I listen to when outside it's snowing and there's 2 degrees Celsius but it feels like -6. Say buh-bye to the agriculture this year, well for us the city people it looks cool but still...

I'm very curious where I'll be ten years from now, or let's just say 5 years for the start, hope I'll be happy no matter what I'll be doing or where I'll be living. :)