joi, 27 aprilie 2017

Happy (Edited)

Happy 'cause I've found myself some roommates and it's awesome because they're my best friends since 5th grade, been by my side for so many years that we call ourselves family so I'm lucky we all search for a new place, an apartment, to move into starting June, in Bucharest. I'll also finish all my businesses here in June  and from July on, I'm coming to you babes, FINALLY and it will be awesome or will make it awesome or at least everything seems to come in place at the right time for me right now and I'm lucky because it happened that we have the same wishes or cause, whatever and the time is also on my side and in tune with them so it's going to be ok, it has to. Perfect timing. Time for new beginnings girls, new backgrounds, new everything for all of us three and I know we're all gonna make it happen no matter what. ;) Or it so happens that life really don't want to keep us apart no matter what, haha. Something like we can run from each other but we can't hide. :))
This is for me because I deserve it


And this is for them and for the future.
Cheers for a great summer and future.
At the end of June I'll be like Buh-bye bitches! And a big smile on my face while saying it out loud, oh yeah that's what you'll get! :) You've seen more than enough of me, way too much actually. Payed me so little that it took me 9 months of my youth and my sanity just to be able to leave the city for good and no, I didn't spend, not at all, I didn't do anything just to be able to keep them all for this, for summer.
And it's funny because another 2 of my colleagues will also leave and they've been since like forever, like 3years lool, only one will remain from 4, so hey jokes on you or karma strikes again. :D
If until I'm 30(fortunately I'm 23 and I look like I'm 17-18 so I still have some time), so if until I'm 30 I won't just leave the city but this whole country called Romania, if I won't leave for good this country until I'm 30, not just the city, bad habit to repeat myself, I will say that I have failed in my life, until then, get out of my way because nothing can stop me and everything is possible, I know I can literally do everything and can make anything happen, be it the biggest of them all, actually the bigger the better, job related I really have no limits. This is how I've always been. I'll probably do a Masters degree too while I'm there as it'll be the period of admissions too but first new city means new job. 



vineri, 21 aprilie 2017

Taboo (Edited)

Later Edit: Cititi articolul asta:http://www.piticigratis.com/2017/04/cum-sa-nu-ajungi-sclav/
Too bad it's not in English. Domnul din postarea de mai sus vorbeste de corporatii si de chestii ceva mai mari, eu o sa zic de alte chestii, mult mai mici, firme mai mici, francizate sau nu, ideea e ca sunt la scara mai mica din mica mea experienta pentru ca alceva nu am, inca :)
As adauga aici si postul meu mai vechi din 2016: http://claudiabercaruro.blogspot.ro/2016/11/about-multilevel-marketing-or-how-to.html 
precum si mai multe chestii pe care le-am descoperit recent despre temporary working, temp workers, cum sunt exploatati la greu intr-un mod foarte ilegal oamenii disperati care cauta un job in alta tara, cat de putin sunt platiti, cred ca nici macar un contract de munca nu au, in ce hal sunt tratati de la discriminare la sexual harassment, e un fel de trafic de persoane dar asa mascat sub pretextul muncii, cati muncesc fara asigurare de sanatate si multe altele si cat de ilegal este totul. Tot pyramid shaped scheme la greu. Nu stiam de ele pana nu m-au abordat Kelly Services pe LinkedIn. M-am interesat pe net despre ei si am descoperit si fenomenul asta de temp working si mai multe agentii care fac asta, e si un fel de documentar facut de VICE pe YouTube despre asta, la mine era ceva cu call center adica nu asa munca de jos ca aia din warehouses but still, aceeasi metoda folosesc si la fel de ilegal si stupid e totul, e mai naspa decat un entry-level job care macar stii ca e permanent si ca e direct in cadrul firmei, agentiile astea de la cele de job-uri pana la cele de turism, ca te storc si astea de bani la greu, sunt cele mai mincinoase chestii intalnite de mine, ar trebui scoase toate ca sa nu mai pacaleasca si sa chinuie lumea aiurea, nu e nevoie de ele, un om normal poate aplica singur direct la firma sau oriunde ar vrea pentru orice fel de job, nu are nevoie de un intermediar, nu are nevoie de cacaturile astea care te tin pe tusa degeaba si am auzit ca mai dau si economia in jos. Acuma stiu si despre prostia asta, bai da twisted rau de tot mai e lumea asta, cand zic ca nu ma mai surprinde nimic mai apare cate ceva care sa-mi dea peste nas. Si mai sunt multe prostii, cum sa faci bani din a prosti lumea la telefon, cum inca mai exista tot felul de vrajeli de firme si medicina alternativa, religii dubioase, job-uri false, chestii inventate asa de un om somer si plictisit cu prea mult timp liber la dispozitie, bai si atat dar atat de multe prostii ca nu am timp sa le mentionez pe toate dar orice om normal a dat nas in nas macar cu una din ele. Acuma si eu am prea mult timp liber de imi bat capul cu ele. Mai degraba ma apuc de sport sau activitati din astea in aer liber, tot imi place miscarea, instructor la ceva parc aventura tot e de sezon asa decat sa mai am de-a face cu oameni din astia naspa care fac chestii naspa. Asta defapt chiar e o idee foarte buna, un job la care mai mult sa te distrezi, munca distractiva si sanatoasa in acelas timp. Hmm :)) Calatoritul si asa e prea scump si nu si-l permite oricine, izolatul in munti nu prea e de mine(joking), mi s-a mai propus sa vin la Bucuresti, e altceva si nu o sa zic nu. :D

Sunt perfect de acord cu faptul ca trebuie sa fii cu totul si cu totul alta persoana acasa fata de la munca, mi se pare normal ca cele doua sa nu se amestece sub nicio forma si sa ramana foarte separate, acasa esti tu cu tine in libertatea ta, acasa nu prestezi vreun serviciu cuiva pentru care esti platit asa ca mi se pare normal sa le tii total separate una de cealalalta viata personala de job. De asta mi-am dat si eu seama la scurt timp, e chiar primul de care mi-am dat seama, e un mod foarte sanatos de a fi mai fericit si mai impacat cu tine.
Si eu care ma gandeam ca sunt eu nebuna si prea naiva din cauza ca nu stiu cum merge lumea si munca si etc. prin primele luni asa cand comentam efectiv la fiecare chestie pe care o observam si nu-mi puteam tine gura inchisa(uneori chiar trebuia dar ha, ce bine ma simteam sa nu tac cu riscul de a-mi lua "bataie", eram si cred inca, ca sunt si voi fi tot timpul angajatul ala atipic dar n-o sa ma deranjeze niciodata asta) si ohoo observam mult mai multe fata de cat trebuia. :) Dar hey, se pare ca gandesc mai lucid ca oricand(noroc ca sunt mult prea incapatanata si tin prea mult la ideile mele, ajuta si asta cateodata). Ca mai trebuie sa si tac din cand in cand, inca mai lucrez la asta. Si da poate deocamdata nu stiu foarte bine cum merge viata si minunata lume a muncii si cate tipuri de oameni exista nici nu as avea cum si de unde inca, pe asta pot sa o recunosc, dar de observat chestii tot observ si chiar mult prea multe ca mai trebuie sa invat si cum sa le iau, sa procesez toata informatia care vine din toate partile si ma acapareaza asa si sa le judec pe final ca sa iasa niste conexiuni faine pe acolo si sa ajung la o decizie misto, eeh, e timp si pentru asta, se cheama a fi organizat, ceva la care nu prea ma pricep, mai am niste ani acolo de experimentat chestii si de invatat lumea, defapt mai am o groaza de invatat si mai ales de facut dar macar sunt pe drumul cel bun, gandesc mai lucid ca niciodata, phew si nu cred ca as fi vreodata in stare sa imi pierd multi ani din viata lucrand doar un lucru, doar acel ceva si atat(cel putin asta e viziunea mea de moment), nu stiu, ma plictisesc mult prea repede, trec tot timpul la altceva, nehotararea asta are si ea avantajele si dezavantajele ei intr-un fel, dar chiar cred ca o sa imi descopar incet, incet si vocatia si rolul meu pe pamant(suna fancy) daca nu descopar nimic, eeh, de invatat tot o sa invat cate ceva si tot o sa am de unde alege ca o sa stiu ca am incercat aia si aia si aia si nu mi-a placut, o sa le iau prin eliminare ca tot imi plac mult prea multe chestii, e bine macar ca deocamdata stiu ce mi-as dori sa fac pentru la anul de exemplu, ca nu e chiar pentru toata viata, doar pentru o perioada scurta de timp, asta e partea a doua dar oh imi place prea mult si ar fi pacat sa nu incerc, de ceva noroc pentru o sansa mai am nevoie apoi sigur o sa ma descurc pe mai departe.

Foarte bun material e articolul de mai sus si nu mi se pare deloc exagerat pentru ca eu am avut norocul asta, sa vad si alte tari si alte lumi si altfel de lifestyle, mentalitati, oameni, tot ce vrei, the whole package, prin urmare sa stiu ca exista acel altceva, defapt exista mai multe altceva-uri chiar foarte multe pe care noi nu cred ca vom avea ocazia sa le traim sau macar sa ni le imaginam vreodata ca ele exista din cauza ca Romania si din cauza ca viata unui om in general e destul de limitata, nu e timp chiar pentru tot ce exista out there, defapt sunt sigura ca nu e timp pentru tot, face parte din a fi om si nu computer, robot, ce-o mai exista, whatever.

Si cred ca de multe ori e mai bine sa fii luat drept nebun, eu asta am sa ii zic tineretului(ala care e mai tanar decat mine ca si eu sunt tineret) fiti exact ce vreti, fiti nebuni daca asta vreti, nebunia e foarte frumoasa daca e si inteleasa corect, cum trebuie(vezi Legion) si in nebunia voastra acolo ganditi numai si numai pentru voi dar faceti-o asumat, asumati-va ideile si gandirea si mergeti pana la capat cu ea si cu ele, ideile si sa nu va fie niciodata teama sa fiti luati drept nebuni, pentru ca sunt sigura ca tot timpul se va gasi pe putin o persoana care sa va impartaseasca ideile si viziunea pentru ca e imposibil sa nu existe, nimeni nu e atat de unic pe cat ar crede, credem ca suntem unici si speciali in adolescenta, mai tarziu aflam ca defapt toti suntem o apa si-un pamant, nu e nimeni mai special, toti ne nastem, cu totii facem anumite chestii la fel, gen mancam, bem si alte nevoi din astea, chiar si vietile ne sunt cam trase la indigo la majoritatea, prima iubire, dezamagire apoi alta iubire, casatorie, copii, nepoti, e cam acelas pattern la care majoritatea ajungem chiar daca poate il negam in prima instanta, la toti ne cedeaza organismul si murim in final(ar fi mare pacat sa ne cedeze mult mai devreme decat ar trebui din cauza ca ne stresam si ne fortam aiurea asa ca take care) si stiu ca era si o poza de pe 9gag care sustinea ca suntem cu totii nesemnificativi universului. Zicea ceva cu Calm down, chill, we are all worthless in the universe. Nu e deloc gandire nihilista asta, e o gandire lucida si foarte adevarata si chiar foarte sanatoasa. Mai multi ar trebui sa o ia ca atare si sa nu se mai atace asa pe degeaba din orice. Asa ca chill, enjoy your short life on planet Earth and do only and only what makes you happy! because either way, you'll die. And Ding, here's the smile on my 'lil face! Mi se confirma din ce in ce mai tare ca oamenii care gandesc mult prea mult sau stiu prea multe sunt si din ce in ce mai nefericiti, mmda grea "veata de intelectual". :)))
Reminded me of this song:

 Now back to my original post :)
I soo, soo don't like mediocre people with mediocre minds and their mediocre worlds. They make me feel sick, like I can literally feel it in my stomach, the feeling of sickness and disgust but hey you gotta play by the rules at least for your own benefit, there's no other way so you gotta pretend most of the time. And yes, I'm starting to be very good at what I'm doing that being a first class arrogant. This is my shield and I'm proud of it, if you really deserve to see how I really am, that's only my call.

And now the hats are in fashion again, thanks to this amazing show. :)
Can't wait for season 2, surprised me in a very good way, so insightful this show is(I inverted the topic here so it's not a mistake, you're welcome) and yes Tom Hardy is sexy as hell(half of the ladies are pregnant just by watching him walk in this show :)) but of course that's not the only reason we are watching this show, aren't we ladies? :D
Of course we know there's much more to it than just Tom Hardy. Like awesome quotes: "You believe in justice? And yet you're a rationalist. What kind of rational man believes in justice?" Uuuuu
However, awesome show. Cheers and have fun watching it!





marți, 18 aprilie 2017

Firefly (Edited)

I posted on my Instagram the classiest, most elegant dress I ever worn and my favourite of all time. I have it for 2 years and I love it so much that I hope I'll fit into it my whole life and it's funny because I found it very randomly displayed in a local boutique shop and it was very cheap but everything from the material to the black lace from the front is of good material and it looks very expensive and from who knows what very expensive couture shop when it's just from a tiny shop, found it by chance in a winter day, that's why it's funny. And it fits me perfectly like it was made for me, not to short but also not too long, no dress fits me better than this one and it's the classiest and most elegant thing I ever wore because it has a little bit of train and lace of course, I don't know it's just pure perfection, simply can't pass unnoticed wearing it, quite impossible with that black lace in the front. 
I probably should have someone take a normal photo of me wearing it and not just a very unprofessional selfie with my potato phone who does potato photos, that's how I call my phone so get used to it. Here's the pic or more pics in one, whatever. I tried to capture some of its beauty but not everything.



I don't know why I needed to blog about this, is just a dress and I don't usually get very attached to clothes or shoes or make-up, I get more attached to things in general, books or random things, music but not clothes but this one is a special one, like when you wear your first pair of high heels to the very first lace dress or dress with real lace, it's just some womanly things, nothing more.

It goes very well with this song and movie. Who doesn't like Pulp Fiction and the classics in general?

And this dance scene. :) Quite iconic.

I'm a huge fan of Tarantino but more of Uma Thurman and Nancy Sinatra and her boots which are made for walkin'. Women were beautiful then, more natural but I think they are also beautiful now. If you have good taste, you can't be anything else except beautiful. ;) A wink for all the ladies to feel special, haha.

And the title for my blog post is from this song.
What I'll be without art in my life, art expressed in any form possible, in any form that ever exists, I don't know, probably dead, dead metaphorically speaking, dead inside. :)
Cheers!

Later Edit: Pink Martini is back in Romania and so is Depeche Mode, hmmm.
For me Pink Martini sounds a 'lil bit like Goran Bregovic but it's just my personal opinion:

And this is what I listen to when outside it's snowing and there's 2 degrees Celsius but it feels like -6. Say buh-bye to the agriculture this year, well for us the city people it looks cool but still...

I'm very curious where I'll be ten years from now, or let's just say 5 years for the start, hope I'll be happy no matter what I'll be doing or where I'll be living. :)


joi, 13 aprilie 2017

Lilium (Edited)

What I used to listen to when I was younger, I was quite obsessed with this one and it still gives me goosebumps. :D
Someone commented by saying this: "There seems to be some confusion about this song. It's a solo version of an old Catholic hymn. It wasn't written for Elfen Lied, but rather is a very old piece of music that was used to set the mood. If you look elsewhere you'll find videos of the full original choral version. Classical music is chock-full of gems like this. Modern listeners just aren't familiar with them." I couldn't agree more. And it's funny because I'm not at all a religious person but I love this one as I also love some Enigma's songs which are also liturgy inspired. Maybe because they're kind of mystical. :)
It's Latin people, it's Latin, that's why it sounds so heavenly. You're welcome!

Looks like Coco Chanel the lady from the video. 

And because I've set some mood here, this one too:

There are two kinds of people in this world: Those who love classical music and opera the first time they actually see it and those who'll never understand it, thus will never like it. From a big fan of rock music genre, heavy metal and all that I came to like classical music and jazz, well, well. :))

After these, I'm going back to my old Cowboy Bebop music and Joe Hisaishi's music, never disappoints me.
Cheers!

Later Edit: I should get myself a cat :)





miercuri, 12 aprilie 2017

Tired

I'm so ready for next week because I'll be free as a bird. Easter is finally here and so is my free week. :D

Always trying to learn some things from the older ones. This song is one of them. :)



Initially, I had another blog post prepared in draft with again a lot of my frustrations and problems, not all mine but still problems everywhere, can't escape them, always rise from who knows where and how, never in my life seen so many of them in such a short period of time from very scary health issues(no, not me, me is very ok, phew) to absolutely everything like wtf, life, will it ever stop, why you're showing me all of these, testing me all the time?! What I've done so, so wrong to deserve all of this? I've had the best last three years of my life and now you want to show me the worst year of them all? :)) Worse and worse and nope I'm not exaggerating, not at all.  Many are better said face to face, a public blog is not the best place and internet in general is not the best place. And Life, if this is your way of making me stronger and develop some thick skin, it's not worth it so you'd better stop(me talking to myself like a crazy person again :)) that's why I'm getting really tired of everything and I decided to not post it because it's not worth it, I just decided to leave them all behind, too young, too soon and not really know how to face them all, don't even know how to react (fuck, this is a nervous laugh) :)) so better to just not bother because I gotta be able to think straight, be very ok and take the best decisions for all the changes that are very, very sure about to come this summer, no turning back this time, it's kind of decided :)) because yep many things will change, all for me, hope in good and not in bad(actually it doesn't matter anymore, I need to feel that relief) must take some risks, push my boundaries, dunno, do something, have to, otherwise I'll hate myself even more and more and more and it's not healthy. I just hope it will be a relief and I hope I'll feel better but a relief even for a short period of time is exactly what I need right now, this also includes another country, of course, who knows me, knows me. :) Don't care who reads this and what you think of it because this is how I feel, tired, too many problems man, I know life's much more beautiful than this, so not worth it to waste it on problems. :(

And this is the last post with negative stuff on it, so not worth it. I really hate to complain all the time, actually I like to just joke and laugh, always. :D I'll try, though, to be more low profile on the internet even if I don't want to.


miercuri, 5 aprilie 2017

Legion

Just watch Legion, very twisted, plays with your mind, mindblowing and a very good actress as the antagonist :) Just one season aired of 8 episodes so not a big deal to watch it. I finished the whole season tonight because this is what I do sometimes if it's a very good tv series and I'm really not into SF, Marvel movies and especially tv series but this, I really liked it, quite different.

Cheers!

Taboo,Vikings, Lucifer, Big Bang Theory and House of Cards also seem interesting but nope, no time for them, there's just so many that I have a list just for the future but of course don't think I'll ever watch them all. The rest, very good ones, I've seen them all, more about tv series watched or to-watch lists are on my second blog post from october 2016 and from the Black Mirror post if I remember it well. :D

Now I'm currently watching Sons of Anarchy


sâmbătă, 1 aprilie 2017

Prototype (Edited of course :)

This song is dedicated to my mother. Changing the way people think about disability is always a very good idea. :)

I was thinking how since the beginning of time very beautiful and strong, independent and single women were always feared and blamed or discriminated both by women and men but especially by women because women are always jealous of each other and scared of someone taking their man, haha(if your man wants to leave you for another woman, he'll do it, no matter what tactics you may pull on him) and because usually a beautiful and smart woman can be quite powerful. However, be aware that I don't support feminists and I'm antifeminism because I know we equally need men in our lives as they need us, it's just common nature and the arguments feminists bring to support themselves are always egoistic of course and very illogical which is ironic because they claim to be very logical so quite a paradox there and they are also always posing in victims of something, who knows what which is quite pathetic and doesn't show at all how strong they are as they want us to believe. :) I remember I had an English teacher in my last year of University, she was not only the Dean of the Faculty of Letters but also a strong feminist who always had something to say about men, always something very bad of course, it wasn't a problem as we were mostly girls but I always had that urge to leave the classroom in the middle of the lecture just so I won't interrupt her by saying something she definitely wouldn't have liked to hear and I'm a girl so you can imagine how it was for the very few boys that were also there. :))


 Monica Belluci in "Malena"
Not related to this post but worth mentioning about it is that I had a permanent tattoo and it's on my right arm, it has aprox. 20 cm so quite visible. For me it has a very special, personal meaning, I wanted one for a long time and I'm glad that my family and the people that matter in my life accepted it and were more than reasonable about it, others will never matter. :) I know some appreciate it, some love it at first sight, some are scared of it, some will criticise me no matter what I'll do, even if I breathe(like my boss does all the time because I'm quite problematic at taking any kind of orders from anyone so not many people understand or like me at first but usually they do it later when they get to know me better if they're patient enough to discover me, this always happens to work well in the end but on most occasions depends on how open to subtilities or better said letting go of any kind of antipathy you may feel about me so you can actually see something else, some can do it, some can't, their loss, but I know I like to provoke a lot just so they'll realise something in the end, it's very risky what I do, I know, because people are very unpredictable but always worked well in the end because I do a very good job, excellence is what I strive for :) and there's always a very great satisfaction for me to see how the attitudes are changing when they really get to know me, some even followed my examples or my way of thinking :D). Malena is a very good example about how beautiful, single women will always be criticised no matter what they do or how they act. Some looked at me like I just went out of prison or like a criminal of some sort because of this tattoo, talking about the wrong mentality, hypocrisy and post-communism closed minded thinking. In my field of work, I knew it from the start what will happen and that I'll have to cover it but as I don't see myself there for a long time, I always search for better, it doesn't matter that much. Many claim it's like a dangerous drug and once you had one you'll want more and more. This happens when you're an extremist and don't know your limits. I know I have my limits so I know one, especially of my size is more than enough. I'm very glad it turned out to be exactly as I wanted and that it's almost completely healed and still looks gorgeous because I took and I'm still taking very good care of it. :)  It is also a very good exercise for me to care less about what strangers think about me, it will actually help me a lot.
Cheers and always fight for your ideas and always do what you want but also accept the consequences your actions may bring to yourself and others and very important, remember to always be reasonable and open minded! :-*

And I like to thank my colleagues for their support, they always warn me and try to teach me only good stuff, great, hard working people. They actually watch my back when I should do it for myself, that's why: Hats off to them!
Maybe the world will be a better place only when all the conflicts are solved through dancing :D

Later Edit: And no, I won't get tired of my tattoo even if I'll see it every single day, I'll actually be surprised if I would because I get bored with people's reactions and with people in general so I'll probably get tired of you and your stupid questions or shitty attitude rather than with art, with art I'll never ever get tired, I grew up with it with art and I won't be able to live without it ever again like I adore a drawing I have at home for 10 years and I see it everyday and I still adore it, would take it with me wherever I'll go if it wasn't so big, haha, so how could I get tired of art, being it something so special and personal to me? and I know I don't have to explain myself to anyone but now I feel like it so I'll do it. Better get yourself one too so you won't be jealous of mine. :-P Actually, the most dangerous people are those in expensive suits not those with tattoos on them so take care! This song is also my fav, a cover of something I blogged about some time ago :)